This is basically a cryptic post, so why am I writing it? I am writing it because as the title says, I am starting over. For me to start over I have to get rid of those things that weigh me down. Even the Bible has something to say about it:
Hebrews 12:1 Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us
I am working on laying aside every weight…I am also asking the Lord to help me to lay aside too the ‘sin which so easily ensnares me’ – at this point I could name so many – jealousy, bitterness, dislike, pride, etc so I can be able to run (I wish I could literally run but that is a post for another day) with endurance the race (Oh, what a race) that is set before me.
At some point this year I felt like I was mistreated by the powers above. I also felt that I was never given the opportunity to tell my side of the story. I was called names in an escalated situation in which the other party was provocative. I chose to stay silent during the snafu. Turns out she was saying all those things and taping it just in case I say something she can use against me. I felt like I had no avenue for recourse because both parties had to protect the innocent.
I was mad, angry and bitter. Everyone pretended like nothing happened. I was dying softly.
I am starting over again. I am laying aside every weight. I am singing Darrel Evan’s song: I’m trading my sorrows
I’m trading my sorrows,
I ‘m trading my shame,
I’m laying them down for the joy of the Lord…
YES LORD YES LORD YES YES LORD
I am pressed but not crushed,
persecuted but not abandoned
Struck down but not destroyed
YES LORD YES LORD YES YES LORD!
Keep looking up, will be posting posts from our trip!